🔗 Share this article Unbearable Suffering: My Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches It was a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting. The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches. Cluster headaches often start with severe discomfort behind one eye that lasts for several hours. About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods. What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain. Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home. Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center. Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility. Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads. Ancient healing records propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies. It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”. The disorder were only officially classified by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the condition note this. In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better. In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints. Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments. A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased. National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known people. But leading specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity. The official guidelines need updating to reflect a